"Bullshit!" I said, "Bullshit". Walmart is running a TV ad right now that promotes their DVD selection and one of the specific DVDs they advertise is "AC/DC Live at Donington". When I saw the ad I said bullshit, that performance is only available on on VHS, as it has been since 1992. Since they hadn't done a DVD of it until now I figured it was destined to stay VHS forever. I mean they have DVDs of their last two big tours, and they're good, but I was always hoping for a DVD release of the 1991 Donington Castle show...and now they have! I have the "No Bull" DVD and it is good, and I saw the "Stiff Upper Lip" tour in Edmonton which was my first "in the flesh" AC/DC experience and was well worth it. I saw them again at SarsStock in Toronto this past summer...they alone were my biggest reason for going. But there's something about that Donington performance that just juts it out in front of the others. Maybe because it was the first live AC/DC performance I ever saw (my friend lent me his VHS back in high school). I haven't seen it in years, so I'm anxious to get my hands on the new DVD and check it out once again. Maybe it won't compare much to the "in the flesh" experiences I've had...and maybe I'll even think the "No Bull" DVD is a better performance, but it doesn't matter because I still want "AC/DC Live at Donington" in my collection. I've heard rumours that it has some overdubs on certain songs, but I've also read reviews that say it is the full performance.

I think I'm going to cut out the presents aspect of Christmas next year. It's too late to do it this year. It's just so stupid. You're buying people presents because you know they're buying you a present. But what you're buying them is probably not something they need. Sometimes it is, but often I find I'm getting people stuff they don't need or won't use...but it was a nice present and a nice thought. The pressure of Christmas gift buying is just not necessary. Now, I'd feel bad if someone bought me a present and I didn't get them anything, so to make it all easy, I'll just let my family and friends know that I'm not expecting to get anything from them next year and I will not be getting them anything. If I happen upon something when I'm not being pressured to a buy a gift, but I know it's something that a specific person needs or wants, then I'd be inclined to get it for them...without Christmas as a reason. I may do this...haven't decided yet. It's a big change. My family and friends will think I've gone crazy probably...maybe not. I think I'm a bit crazy anyways, but I try not to let it show. Not hyper crazy. I just have some ideas that don't follow everyday society. They're not even my ideas, I'm sure other people do these things, but not the majority of the population. For some reason I feel like I'm always trying to fit in, yet I don't want to. Weird.

Enough.

Saw the premier of Lord of the Rings: Return of the King tonight. Got free passes through work (gotta love those perks). Quite good. Very digital but that's pretty much how they had to do it...and it's decent digital. Gollum is excellent. Storytelling is excellent. Had to sit in the front row...head cranked for over 3 hours...not too comfy. Tree cried, it's an emotional ending.

Got home and found that the lovely Liv Tyler was on Letterman, so watched that. She's looking very good, but sadly (for me), she is officially off the market. I knew it was coming. She had been engaged to him for a long time, but finally Royston from Spacehog is the lucky husband to Liv. Like I had a chance anyways...but there's always that hope.

On a related note (and this is a spoiler for LOTR, so skip it if you don't wanna spoil it), Sam Gamgee says at one point that he'd like to marry Rose back in Hobbiton. When he does get back to Hobbiton, he ends up marrying her. Now I know movies have happy endings more often than not, but I hate it when some guy says "that's the girl I want to marry" and ends up doing it. Yes, I realise it does happen in real life from time to time, but it doesn't happen in most cases. If only it were....

So anyways, I've decided I gotta shape up. Both physically and mentally. On the weekend my dad fixed a few things on my truck that I've been neglecting. Why do I neglect? Cause I'm lazy. That needs to change. I don't want my parents to feel they need to do things for me because I'm lazy. That's not right. Here I am, 26, living with them (although for only half a month more), leaching off them cause I didn't bother to find work when I came home from NZ and I spent beyond my means for what reason I don't know. This will be my New Years resolution. I can start now, but officially in 2004. It will help big time that I have plans to move into Choy's at that time. So, new Planman, here I come!

I am not an efficient user of time. For myself. At work, I use time very wisely and get a lot done. When I'm not at work, I'm lazy and unproductive. I have a lot of ideas and ambition, but no motivation or determination to follow through.

Right now.

I'm in a slump.
Something needs to change.
I need to change.
I will change.
I'm just procrastinating when to make the change.

I lived nocturnally this week. Kinda fun for a second, but not the best of ideas.

I want to be LushBoy..I'm like him in some ways.

Everytime I flip past MuchMoreMusic there's something about Wacko Jacko on there. It's fuckin' sad. Not that Jacko is a molester, but that humans are interested in shit like that.

Speaking of humans and our stupid interests...I can't believe the things we waste money on. I'm not talkin' about menial little things that we buy and don't need...although that does factor into the big picture. I heard on the news tonight that they're trying to re-stage the 100m run from the '88 Seoul Olympics (where Ben Johnson won, then lost). All 8 original runners have agreed to do it....in Seoul. Of course they'd agree. Rumour has it first prize will be $2 million USD. You know how many people $2 million could help? These runner, I'm sure they don't need that kind of money. I'm sure all of them aren't loaded, but I'm sure they're not piss poor either. But $2 mil, that's nothing really. There's so much more money out there that goes to waste. Some people: actors, lawyers, business executives - you know who I'm talking about. People that make much more than they really deserve to earn. I mean, I agree that there's scales of pay, and some people make more than others. But once you hit a certain level, it's ridiculous to make any more money, cause you don't need it. Now I realize that there are people that make a lot of money, and they do use a fair chunk of it to help out others. But I think there's a lot that gets used to help make rich people richer, or it just gets wasted on useless projects that benefit no one.

Now, by help I don't mean just giving people money. I don't think it's right that working people work and should be expected to just give their money to those who don't work. You gotta earn your keep. So by help, I mean that these vast sums of cash that some people have, they need to be put to use in a form that gets people to help themselves. Create menial jobs for these people so that they're doing something and earning a living. Then, they will get themselves straightened out and out of the poor house. It shouldn't matter if these jobs that are created don't turn a financial profit...the profit is in the societal changes.

Now, I don't know how people get to the poor house or to be living on the street. These people must not have anyone in their life that cares about them. I mean if one of my friends ever lost his or her job and couldn't find anything else and ran flat broke, I would be there to help them out in any way I could. It's what friends do. I probably wouldn't even get the chance because my friends have good families that I'm sure would take care of them. So it seems to me that homeless people have no one that cares about them...except maybe for other homeless people (but they probably didn't meet them until they themselves became homeless). I don't quite understand the point of living if you have no one that cares about you...but that's another story. For some reason, these people are still around and they must need help. It cannot be enjoyable to be sleeping in a doorway in the middle of december.

So, to the people with excess money out there - give these people something to do and pay them for it. Have them pick up litter or clean gutters or weed gardens. If they refuse the work or don't do a good job then they obviously don't want the help and should be...well, I won't say what I think should be done with the people that don't want help cause I'll probably be stoned.

I know I can sit here and pound out my thoughts about what should be done to help the homeless and poor, yet here I am doing nothing about it. Well, I don't have a lot of excess money for starters. If I ever do, I'm making it one of my goals to help out more. I don't think help should be done just around Christmas either.

Ok, I don't know if any of the above makes sense. I just spilled it out cause I've been thinking about it lately. There's probably a ton of holes in my ideas to get homeless people on their feet, but it's a start. My ultimate idea is to hire the homeless to build their own housing (with help from skilled trades people when necessary). Pay them while they work on them, and then have super cheap rent so they can live in them. It takes fuckin money to do anything these days, and as I said I got next to none. But, there's a lot of people that have a lot, and if they pooled together (or some even on their own) there could really be some big changes. As it stands, I think there's too much greed and pride...and I admit, I fall prey to it those deadly sins as do many people.

I got an email on monday. Once again I have fallen into the friend zone and not the boyfriend zone. I'm not heartbroken...I mean I didn't know her all that much. It's not the end of the world...I was just hoping it would have turned out differently. Ah well. I'll stay friends with her...it's good to have friends. She smelled like smoke anyways.

This woman got stuck in our driveway this morning. That's what ya get for driving a Ford. It was an SUV, but only a 2-wheel drive...what up with that? Anyways, her rear passenger side tire was way up in the air and her front driver side tire was in the ditch. Believe it or not, I wasn't heavy enough to force the back tire to the ground, but then Ben from next door happened to be coming out and offered to pull her out. That was my next move, but I just didn't know where a good tow rope would be. Luckily Ben had one and we got her out quite easily. Many people used to get stuck in the ditch beside the driveway, but not in years has it happened. I think it's all been women drivers too...not that that means anything....

What a waste of a week...I need to get my ass in gear. I have no motivation right now. I'm just fuckin lazy I think. It'll pass.